If you follow me on Instagram, I'm sure you've noticed I'm not in New York right now. I've hopped down to Florida to visit The B Man who is working down here for a bit and... I'm (sort of) not going back. Not to worry New York and I have most definitely not said our final goodbye, but after I leave Florida next week, I will be "wintering" in my native land, Los Angeles.
For those of you who grew up with winter, I realize I sound like a crazy person when I say, I can't do it again. I love New York... just not in the winter. I HATE it in the winter and this year, as the temperatures dropped to subzero wind chills, I honestly felt it aging me. I felt the long months of darkness and stabbing winds hardening me and making me want to backhand the people around me who somehow turn winter into a competition for who is strong enough to withstand their self-righteous misery the longest.
So, I'm opting out. I am literally being a fair-weather friend and the ultimate flat leaver.
I'll be returning to New York just as soon as the weather is nice and I'm sure I will instantly be in love again with the breath of air of an arriving subway, or the hum of the city that used to keep me awake at night that I now feel naked without. I'll be returning when I feel like I won't go mad from the hole that is left in the city when The B Man travels for work (which is going to be a lot over the coming months) and when I feel like I have a better sense of what I want to be doing in New York anyway.
I originally came to New York for school and had every intention of graduating and heading straight to Broadway. The universe threw me a curve ball with a totally unexpected job offer from a internship I still have no idea why I even applied for. After a year and a half at that job I left to go pursue my dreams, only to realize I was setting myself up for life I ultimately did not want and wasn't willing to sacrifice some pretty big things for. So back to the office I went.
Is my current job my dream? No. Has it allowed me to stay in New York, meet some really wonderful people, support myself and pay for my own life since the moment I graduated? Yes. And now, it's giving me the option to step back for a second, be closer to my family for a few months, and remember why I really came to New York (which deep down I know had nothing to do with performing, although I don't really know what it has to do with yet).
When I came to New York I had been moving around and traveling for years, uprooting myself every few months for a new city or country or school. By the time I landed in New York, I was exhausted and wanted nothing more than to root myself somewhere for a few years and really stand on my own two feet. After five years, my little nomadic soul is getting a little antsy.
I'll be bringing you all along with me on this very strange, modern-lady adventure of bicoastal wonder. Los Angeles has so much to offer and I'm really excited to explore it and share it all here on The Bee's Knees! Under the title on this blog it says "All Things Brooklyn, NYC, and Beyond." This is the beyond. I hope you'll come along and keep me company on this adventure (adventuring can be very lonely).
This is about choosing to not be miserable and taking advantage of opportunity just because it's there.
Let me know if there's anything in LA or California in general that you think I should check out!
So... goodbye for now, New York. I'll catch you on the flip side.